One thing is for sure: our family is not complete. I cannot explain that other than I just know.
For awhile there, I was strongly contemplating adopting, but for now, I am leaning more towards birthing the last child. In fact, I am most certain, God willing, that is what our plans are.
We are trying to decide when to try to have a baby. And by "try", I mean get pregnant. I have many weaknesses, but fertility is not one of them. In case you can't tell.
Our kids are fairly close, so one part of me wants to get pregnant in about 9-10 months....and be done. Forever!!
But another part of me wonders if I should take a longer break.
See, I have this really weird feeling (that is probably not going to happen) that I will have twins. For one, Brett has always wanted five kids, and I only want four. Things just seem to go his way, so this would not surprise me. My aunts are twins, so it is not likely but not far reaching either.
Not knowing I was already feeling this way, my sister called me a few weeks ago and said, "You know you're going to have twins if you get pregnant again." Random!
I know the probability of twins is so low, so this is a stupid thought. But knowing I want to be done with four, it just makes me a little nervous.
It will be interesting to see how this plays out.....stay tuned.....til, at least, 2012...LOL!